Saturday, August 21, 2010

Nafsu Ammarah Saya

In da Name of Allah...

Berdosanya saya..
*Menangis*

Kenapa ye..?!
Kenapa saya tak tabah seperti sahabiah..?!

Atau sekurang-kurangnya..
Seperti ibu saya sendiri..
Tak perlu menangis begini..
Tak dapat menahan nafsu ammarah..

Oh! Allah..!
Berilah saya kekuatan..!

(Ingin menutup telinga daripada mendengari apa-apa di luar sana!)

Thursday, August 19, 2010

Du'aa for Seeking Forgiveness

In da Name of Allah..

O my Allah, have mercy upon us. We are extremely sinful servants. Day and Night, we have disobeyed You. We have used Your bounties and gifts for Your disobedience.

O Allah, we use the wealth that You have given, for Your disobedience.

O Allah, we have used the sight, the hearing and the speech that You have blessed us with, for Your disobedience. 

O Allah, we have used the life which You have blessed us with, for Your disobedience.

O Allah, when we go to hospitals, we see some people paralyzed and some attached to different tubes and machines …yet  

O my Allah, we do not take any lesson. We do not appreciate Your bounties.

O Allah, Your bounties rain upon us 24 hours of the day.

O Allah, despite our sins, You are giving us so much to eat and so much to drink; You are giving us clothes to wear and modes of transport to travel in.

O Allah, You provide food, clothing and shelter for us.

O Allah, our lives are in Your Control.

O Allah, You keep our hearts, our kidneys, our livers, our lungs and our limbs functioning.

O Allah, You have granted us Imaan, without any sacrifice, and yet we show no appreciation.

O Allah, in spite of our ungratefulness, in spite of our disobedience and sins, You continue to shower Your Bounties and Favours upon us. 

If there was another Allah, He would have destroyed us by now; He would have shaken the earth beneath our feet; He would have ordered the earth to swallow us; He would have sent the wind to destroy us; He would have made us blind by now; He would have made us deaf and dumb by now; He would have paralyzed us by now …for we have indulged in so many sins.

Although we know, O Allah, that for some people blindness, deafness, dumbness, paralysis and illnesses are tests and means of elevation of status, but O Allah, how difficult life would have become without these bounties. …O Allah, how Merciful You are, that You did not snatch away these gifts and You did not destroy us.

O Allah, as great as is Your beautiful name, forgive us.

O Allah, open the floodgates of Your Rahmat
and Forgiveness.

O Allah, if we have to ask, repeatedly, of human beings, they become annoyed, angry and displeased.

O Allah, if we have to ask of You, then You become happy and pleased. …The more we beg of You, the more pleased You become.

O Allah, if we don’t ask of You, then You become displeased.

O Allah, it is not a shame; rather an honour and privilege to beg of You. 

O my beloved Allah, the pious and the righteous come to You with their Ibaadat, with their tilawat and Zikr (Praise of Allah Ta'ala), with their piety and their good deeds.

O Allah, we come to You with our sins.

O Allah, our sins are like the mountains, but O Allah, we cannot despair of Your Mercy, for You have declared in the Qur`aan Sharief : ‘Do not despair of the Mercy of Allah…’.

O Allah, man has made dynamite sticks, which blow up huge mountains…

O Allah, …What is it difficult for You to blow away our mountains of sins?

O Allah, forgive our sins.

O Allah, we have made our hearts into dirt bins.

O Allah, we have filled our hearts with malice, with greed, with pride, with arrogance, with evil desires and passions…

O Allah, evil desires and passions have engulfed our hearts.

O Allah, we watch so much of Haraam, we listen to so much of Haraam, we speak so much of Haraam, we indulge in so much of Haraam that our hearts have become dark and pitch black.

O my beloved Allah, a guest would not like to stay in a room in which there are dead bodies, dead cats and dead rats…

Then O my Allah, how can You, Pure as You are, come into hearts like ours; filled with the filth of pride, jealousy, malice, greed and other corpses ? …But O Allah, who is there to purify our hearts, beside You?

O Allah, if the world’s waste goes into the waters of the oceans, the oceans still remain clean. …One wave is sufficient to keep everything clean.

O Allah, when we make wudhu with the waters of the oceans, our wudhu is valid; if we have to take ghusl,
then that ghusl will be valid.

O Allah, Your ocean of Forgiveness is much, much, more than the oceans of this world. Just one drop from the ocean of Your Forgiveness is sufficient to wash away all our sins.

O my Allah, with one wave of Your Mercy, with one wave of Your Forgiveness – clean and purify us.

O Allah, even if our sins are more than the waves of the oceans, even if our sins are more than the grains of
sand on earth, even if our sins are more than the leaves of the trees of the earth, even if our sins are more than the entire creation put together, then too Your Forgiveness is much, much, more than this.

O The Merciful, have mercy upon us.

O The Forgiving, forgive us.

O Allah, even if some dry crumbs are thrown at a dog, that dog becomes obedient to that master. …That dog does not leave the door of its master.

O Allah, we have left Your door despite using so many of Your bounties and gifts – Our sight, our hearing, our speech, our intelligence are all ne’mats from You…

O Allah, we have realized our mistake.

O Allah, we have realized our error and our sin.

O Allah, now we are turning towards You…

O Allah, there is nothing else that makes us extend our hands, except that we are hopeful of Your Forgiveness.

O my Allah, Your beloved Nabi has informed us that something that is beloved to You, is the forgiveness of the sins of the sinners.

O Allah, You are Oft Forgiving, Merciful, You love to forgive, so forgive us.

O Allah, we are acknowledging and we are confessing before You. We are not justifying our sins.
 
O my Allah, we may be sinful; we may be extremely sinful, but O Allah, we are Your servants. We are Your slaves.

O my Allah, whether we go east or west, whether we go north or south, whether we go deep down in the oceans or above the heavens, it is all Your Kingdom.

O Allah, we are repeatedly asking and begging of You; for there is no other door except Your door.

O Allah, if we leave You, where do we go ? …Who else is there for us, except You ?

O Allah, if we are going to become impatient and angry; if we are going to become displeased; if we are going to leave Your door, then O my Allah, which other door is there for us…?

O Allah, You are our Rabb ; You are our Khaliq (Creator), You are our Maalik (Master), You are our Razzaaq (Sustainer)…

O Allah, if a dog is kicked from one butcher, it can go to another. If a beggar is chased from one home, he can go to another. …But O Allah, if You reject us, then where do we go ? … 

O Allah, there is no one for us except You.

O Allah, don’t turn away Your glance of Mercy because of our sins.

O Allah, if You turn away Your glance of Mercy, then there is nothing for us but destruction in this world, destruction in the Qabr and destruction in the Aakhirah.

O Allah, forgive the sins of our eyes; forgive the sins of our ears; forgive the sins of our tongues; forgive the sins of our hands and feet; forgive the sins of our hearts and minds…

O  Allah, forgive each and every sin that we have committed.

O Allah, one major sin that we have committed is that we have stopped inviting towards good and we have stopped preventing people from doing that which is Haraam.

O Allah, instead, we invite others to Haraam and we prevent them from doing good. O Allah, we consider evil deeds as good and we consider good deeds as evil.

O Allah, we do not want to go alone to Jahannum so we pull others along with us. We invite them to zina , to drugs, to drink, to the rave clubs, to porn, to music, to casinos and to everything Haraam.

O my Allah, give us the realization that we are paving the way to our destruction and the destruction of others.

O my Allah, give each and every one of us the taufeeq of making ‘Amr bil Ma’roof and Nahy anil munkar’ – within our homes, amongst our families, in our societies, and calling – one and all – towards the Deen of Islam.

O my beloved Allah, forgive our major sins and our minor sins; forgive the sins which we committed knowingly or unknowingly, in the light of day or darkness of night.

O Allah, there is no such thing as darkness for You. …Even if there is a tiny, little black ant crawling on a black rock, in the darkest of the darkest of nights, You are aware of the movements of that ant.

O Allah, we were deceiving ourselves. …We were fooling ourselves if we thought that no one was watching when we were indulging in sins.

O Allah, do not seize us on account of our sins. Do not punish us on account of our sins.

O Allah, give us the taufeeq of sincere taubah

O Allah, from the time we have become of age till now, many, many were the sins we committed. O Allah, You could have seized us the moment we committed sins, but how Kind, Merciful and Tolerant You are that You did not seize us.

O Allah, forgive each and every one of us. Forgive our parents, our wives and children, our brothers and sisters, our family members and the entire Ummah of Rasulullah.

O Allah, do not cause any embarrassment to Your Beloved Rasul e, because of our sins.

O Allah, You love to forgive, therefore forgive us.

O Allah, if You do not forgive us, then who do sinful ones like us turn to ?

O Allah, there is no one who can question Your Forgiveness for sinful ones like us, so forgive us.

O Allah, if You forgive us then You will become pleased, Your Beloved Rasul e will become pleased and we will become pleased. The only one who will remain displeased is Shaytaan.

Source : Maulana Yunus Patel, SA.

Wednesday, August 18, 2010

Seorang Wanita dengan Mahar yang Paling Mahal di Dunia


Jadilah engkau wanita yang lebih lembut daripada hembusan, 
dan jadilah wanita yang lebih mulia dari bintang-bintang di angkasa raya

Abu Thalhah mangajukan pinangan untuk menikah dengan Ummu Sulaim binti Mulhan. Dia menawarkan mahar yang tinggi harganya. Akan tetapi, dia sangat terkejut dan lidahnya menjadi kelu ketika Ummu Sulaim menolaknya dengan angkuh.

Ummu Sulaim berkata: "Sesungguhnya tidak sepadan bagiku menikah dengan seorang musyrik". Tahukah engkau, wahai Abu Thalhah, sesungguhnya Tuhan-Tuhanmu itu diperbuat oleh hamba keluarga si fulan. Jika engkau bakar ia dengan api, nescaya Tuhanmu akan terbakar."

Abu Thalhah menjadi tertekan seperti tersambar petir, amarah di dadanya hampir termuntah. Dia tidak percaya terhadap peristiwa yang cukup menyayat hati dari apa yang didengar dan dilihat.

Tetapi kerana cintanya, Abu Thalhah kembali lagi dengan membawa mahar yang lebih besar dan janji kehidupan yang lebih menyenangkan. Dengan itu, dia berharap agar hati Ummu Sulaim luluh menerimanya.

Ummu Sulaim berkata: "Sebenarnya orang sepertimu tidak patut ditolak, wahai Abu Thalhah. Tetapi, engkau adalah lelaki kafir dan aku wanita muslimah. Tidak layak bagiku menikah denganmu."

Abu Thalhah bertanya: "Apakah kemahuanmu?"

Ummu Sulaim bertanya kembali: "Kemahuanku?"

Abu Thalhah bertanya: "Yang kuning (emas) atau yang putih (perak)?"

Ummu Sulaim berkata lagi: "Aku tidak menginginkan yang kuning atau yang putih. Yang aku inginkan adalah ke-Islamanmu."

Abu Thalhah bertanya: "Pada siapa aku mendapatkan itu?"

Ummu Sulaim menjawab: "Pergilah engkau mendapatkannya daripada Rasulullah SAW."

Bersegeralah Abu Thalhah menuju Rasulullah, pada waktu itu beliau sedang duduk bersama para sahabatnya. Ketika Rasulullah melihat Abu Thalhah, Baginda bersabda: "Abu Thalhah datang menemui kalian dengan cahaya Islam di matanya". Abu Thalhah datang kepada Rasulullah dan menceritakan apa yang dikatakan oleh Ummu Sulaim. Akhirnya Abu Thalhah pun dapat menikahi Ummu Sulaim.

Berbahagialah Ummu Sulaim dengan syurganya. Selamat atas keabadian dan kejayaan sebagai penenang hatinya.

P/S: Sumber: Dipetik daripada buku "130 Tips Menjadi Wanita Yg Paling Bahagia Di Dunia oleh Dr. Aidh Al-Qarni"

Wednesday, August 11, 2010

Allahu Rabbi..!!!

In da Name of Allah..

Salam 'alaik..

Aiseh! Malu nak post.. Tak tau nak post apa..
Tapi nak cakap rasa macam jauh hati je..

Lately, rasa mudah bebenor menistiskan air mata nih!
Huuuu... Tak berasa suka dengan keadaan diri yang mudah sensitif macam nih!

Tp, insyaAllah..
Akan ku selitkan juga air mata ku ini untuk ummat, Ya Allah!!!
Huuu.. Iman yang paling lemah nih!
Hanya mampu berkata-kata dalam hati kemudian menangis tersesak2..

Azam nak berjuang sungguh2 untuk Ramadhan kali ni! Aaaamieeen!!!
Harap2 x macam hangat2 tahi ayam dah la!
Na'uzubillah!

Nak amek kesempatan nak do'a, Ya Allah!
Ya Allah, pilihlah aku, Ya Allah!
Pilihlah aku untuk fikir ummat, Ya Allah!!!
Ya Allah, kau peliharalah hubungan kami, Ya Allah!!!
Jadikanlah perkahwinan kami nanti sebagai asbab hidayat tersebar untuk seluruh ummat, Ya Allah!!!
Ya Allah!
Aku tak pandai berdoa, Ya Allah!
Tapi, Ya Allah,
Apa yang didoa oleh Rasulullah itu jugalah menjadi doa aku, Ya Allah!!!
Ya Allah, peliharahlah hubungan kami, Ya Allah!
Aku sayang dia, Ya Allah!!!
Kau peliharalah hubungan kami dr godaan dan hasutan syaitan, Ya Allah!!!
Ya Allah, pilihlah aku untuk Ramadhan kali ini!
Jadikanlah Ramadhan kali ini yang terbaik di antara yang terbaik untukku, Ya Allah!!!
Pilihlah aku, Ya Allah!
Kepada-Mu aku memohon, kepada-Mu jua lah aku berserah, Ya Allah!!!
Ameeen, Ya Allah!!!

p/s: Kepada pembaca yang budiman, tolong amienkn doa sy ini ye! May Allah reward you all with Jannatul Firdaus!!! Aaamieeen!!!

Friday, August 06, 2010

Ketika Allah Memilihmu Untukku..

In da Name of Allah..


Alhamdulillah.. Setelah sekian lama tak update blog ni.. Rindu memang mencengkam untuk mengisi kembali ruangan ini dengan cerita-cerita terbaru.. Janji kpd sahabat untuk memberi karkuzari tentang Jemaah Masturat dari South Africa yang datang ke rumah saya awal Julai lalu pun masih tidak tertunai dek kerana begitu banyak perkara yang perlu dibereskan dalam tempoh sebulan kebelakangan ini. Selepas Jemaah dari SA, kami sekeluarga juga menerima jemaah masturat dari mahallah saya dan nusrah Jemaah Masturat dari Pakistan. 


Entri kali ini saya copied dan pasted dari FB sorang teman saya. Sangat syahdu puisi ini. Mohon izin untuk dipostkan di blog saya ini. Saya tujukan khas entri ini untuk tunang saya yang tersayang! Ops! Lupa nak bagitau.. Saya baru saja melangsungkan pertunangan pada minggu lepas. Doakan kami ye. =)


Buat Abang tersayang, terimalah puisi yang sy copied pasted nih! Hehe..

Ketika Allah Memilihmu Untukku =)





Padamu yang Allah pilihkan dalam hidupku..
Ingin ku beri tahu padamu..
Aku hidup dan besar dari keluarga bahagia..
Orang tua yg begitu sempurna..
Dengan cinta yg begitu membuncah..
Aku dibesarkan dgn limpahan kasih yang tak terhingga..
Maka, padamu ku katakan..
Saat Allah memilihmu dalam hidupku,
Maka saat itu Dia berharap, 

Kau pun sanggup melimpahkan cinta padaku..
Memperlakukanku dgn sayang yang begitu indah..


Padamu yang Allah pilihkan untukku..
Ketahuilah, 

Aku hanya wanita biasa dengan begitu banyak kekurangan dalam diriku,
Aku bukanlah wanita sempurna, seperti yang mungkin kau harapkan..
Maka, ketika Dia memilihmu untukku,
Maka saat itu, Dia ingin menyempurnakan kekuranganku dgn keberadaanmu.
Dan aku tahu, Kaupun bukanlah laki-laki yang sempurna..
Dan ku berharap ketidaksempurnaanku mampu menyempurnakan dirimu..
Karena kelak kita akan satu..
Aibmu adalah aibku, dan indahmu adalah indahku,
Kau dan aku akan menjadi 'kita'..


Padamu yg Allah pilihkan untukku..
Ketahuilah, sejak kecil Allah telah menempa diriku dgn ilmu dan tarbiyah,
Membentukku menjadi wanita yg mencintai Rabbnya..
Maka ketika Dia memilihmu untukku,
Maka saat itu, Allah mengetahui bahwa kaupun telah menempa dirimu dgn ilmuNya.. Maka gandeng tanganku dalam mengibarkan panji-panji dakwah dalam hidup kita..
Itulah visi pernikahan kita..
Ibadah pada-Nya ta'ala..


Padamu yg Allah tetapkan sebagai nahkodaku..
Ingatlah.. Aku adalah mahlukNya dari tulang rusuk yang paling bengkok..
Ada kalanya aku akan begitu membuatmu marah..
Maka, ketahuilah.. Saat itu Dia menghendaki kau menasihatiku dengan hikmah,
Sungguh hatiku tetaplah wanita yg lemah pada kelembutan..
Namun jangan kau coba meluruskanku, karena aku akan patah..
Tapi jangan pula membiarkanku begitu saja, karena akan selamanya aku salah..
Namun tatap mataku, tersenyumlah..
Tenangkan aku dgn genggaman tanganmu..
Dan nasihati aku dgn bijak dan hikmah..
Niscaya, kau akan menemukanku tersungkur menangis di pangkuanmu..
Maka ketika itu, kau kembali memiliki hatiku..


Padamu yang Allah tetapkan sebagai atap hunianku..
Ketahuilah, ketika ijab atas namaku telah kau lontarkan..
Maka dimataku kau adalah yang terindah,
Kata2mu adalah titah untukku,
Selama tak bermaksiat pada Allah, akan ku penuhi semua perintahmu..
Maka kalau kau berkenan ku meminta..
Jadilah hunian yg indah, yang kukuh…
Yang mampu membuatku dan anak-anak kita nyaman dan aman di dalamnya..


Padamu yang Allah pilih menjadi penopang hidupku…
Dalam istana kecil kita akan hadir buah hati-buah hati kita..
Maka didiklah mereka menjadi generasi yg dirindukan syurga..
Yang di pundaknya akan diisi dgn amanah-amanah dakwah,
Yang ruh dan jiwanya selalu merindukan jihad..
Yang darahnya mengalir darah syuhada..
Dan ku yakin dari tanganmu yg penuh barakah,

Kau mampu membentuk mereka..
Dengan hatimu yg penuh cinta, kau mampu merengkuh hati mereka..
Dan aku akan selalu jatuh cinta padamu..


Padamu yang Allah pilih sebagai imamku…
Ku memohon padamu.. Redhalah padaku,
Sungguh Redhamu adalah Redha Ilahi Rabbi..
Mudahkanlah jalanku ke Syurga-Nya..
Karena bagiku kau adalah kunci Syurgaku..